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A lovely invitation

One of the moms invited the entire class to a welcome breakfast at her house. I instantly thought what a beautiful gesture-everyone was included. As it turned out, only about one third of the moms could make it which was nice because it was a little more intimate. It was interesting for me to observe… Read More A lovely invitation

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Words Matter

Today started out as an ordinary autumn afternoon marked by temperatures in the high 80’s. I knew it would be one of the last warm evenings so I packed my beach bag, rallied my girls and headed to one of the 16 pools in our planned community. We decided on our favorite clubhouse pool. It… Read More Words Matter

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Gaslit

Gaslighting is insidious. It makes you feel like your standing on quicksand, or waiting for the other shoe to drop. It’s confusing. It’s the opposite of feeling centered and grounded. Gaslighting is the uncertainty of the very things you know to be true. Gaslighting showed up early my life. Things were anything but normal in… Read More Gaslit

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The Nightingale

What I love about reading is that I often find myself in the characters struggles, hopes, dreams-both lived and un-lived. I relate to the suffering, the sadness and pain, the longing for what has escaped, and the truth. In the Nightingale, I can’t compare my own struggles to those of Vianne or Isabella or for… Read More The Nightingale

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Ancestory

I know almost nothing about my heritage, and I’ve left it that way on purpose. My sister on the other hand is very involved in mapping out her (our) genealogy, but not me. I’ve kept that door tightly sealed hiding any additional unwanted skeletons. What I know: I’m an orphan. My father was an alcoholic.… Read More Ancestory

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Humanity

My problems seem so frivolous this constant perseverating on trying to find myself, tying to discover what is missing, why I always feel on the outside of life as though I’m looking in from the sidelines. Today I turned on the tv, and as I sit to have my coffee, and dread the day stretched… Read More Humanity

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What is Grace?

Ann Lamont says… Grace meets us where we are and does not leave us where it found us. Grace to me is the axis point to which a life of healing rotates. It is the acceptance that is essential to move forward, to love ourselves and others. Grace says I love you as you are,… Read More What is Grace?

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Fear

What is Fear? Fear is the story, not the self Fear confines Fear limits Fear lies Fear robs you of what could be Fear is a comfortable excuse Fear tells you you’re better off playing it safe Fear encourages you to start tomorrow Fear dresses up as safety by telling you change is dangerous Fear… Read More Fear

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Comparing

I’m a master at this.  I often find myself comparing my life to anyone and everyone.  The thing about the comparison game for me is that there is only one rule-I lose.  It doesn’t matter if I’m comparing myself to a working mom or a stay at home mom.  It doesn’t matter if it’s a… Read More Comparing